Awesomely cool. cus i've spent my saturday finish reading 2 books haha!

SOLD& I Believe You.

seriously I believe you is damn touching okay nicer than To forget you.
That is the Best Damn Touching Book that I have ever read.

Oh no i cant spend my time reading on books anymore. I seriously need to start study!!!

2 weeks to mst ): must FOCUS!!!

hmm so basically that is how i spent my saturday. So tdy i shall start to catch up with my tutorials.

But the tvee drifted me frm it. hahaha.

okay must concerntrate!

tatas!

decode it.
Can-I-Hold-Love-Your-You-Hand (:

hahaha yay finally its friday!!! IDEA in the morning tsk tsk boring shit. but the lecturer is like trying hard to entertain us haha so it managed to keep me awake lor :D another thing mon thr is gna to be a field trip at town gna to do survey on those high class shops woohooo but 1 thing tt is not good is it's gna to be a long day for me sia ): after tt had bs hmm finish the tutorial alr dn can go off and the lesson ended at 11! woohoo wad a short day fr me. so as usual i would go home str after sch haha once i rch home, had my lunch, read my book and had a long nap :D i loved it totally.  

It feels bad to be left out, be it being left out by schmates/friends. but i dont understand y this kind of thingsalways happen to me whn i nvr did such thing to anyone. mayb if i did but i do felt guilty whn i found out and try to get them involved in it. but i dont understand y ppl nvr realise it. m i invicible?? haha whatever man? cus now i have seen it through. if you guys doesn't get me involve, y should i bother? cus i will have the extra time to do the things tt i like and rest well haha so it doesn't matters me much tho. cus i jus wna to help and lessen the load understanding tt everyone has their own things to bz with, since im so free but it seems like you guys can handle things so well tt you doesn't need my help at all. so y should i care so much abt you guys when i can just sit right back, enjoying my life and all my free time doing my own things. hahaha

nah no worries this is not even an emo entry cus i have tot it thr alr i dont give a damn abt everything anymore if you doesn't wn me to be involved :D hmm this wad my loner life but i seems to like it you noe you noe hahaha talk whn thr is a need, to ppl who i dont care. i will only treat my friends genuinely. It is hard to classifield as my friends nowadays :D

nvm i've got my own plans

on a happier note,
CHRISTMAS IS COMING!!! MST IN 2 WEEKS TIME & 3 WEEKS OF HOLIDAYS AFTER TT!!!
hahaha HAPPY TTM! can't wait fr it mans hope tt i can excel in my mst too!! No is a MUST to do well.
i will start studying tmr! :D & finish my story books on the weekend.
hahaha can't wait for christmas man tho im not a christian but i jus love christmas festive season can anot hahaa!!

hahaha okay tatas!
:D

tdy had gems :D haha cool cus tdy we learn how to see facial expression, making eye contact and body language :D
yay! richard is back tdy so tdy's lesson is more or less interesting hahaha! had beibei for lunch cus im on my save money scheme!!!!

after tt had law! followed by auto cadd. It started raining cat&dog :/ & dn so coincidental cus every thurs got cadd dn cfm will rain until damn imba one jinx man. i dont like cadd seriously!! but nvm i managed to survive thr the 4 hrs of winter lesson. the room was freezing cold due to the heavy rain outside hahaha had currypuffs frm fc1! damn nice ttm hahaha cannot resist the temptation ): in the end bought 4 okay! had surprise test& touch a bit on my coursework dn end of the long day, phew! :D

yay after tmr it shall be my weekend, time fr me to rest!!! :D

okay ytd finish the book : To Forget You. damn nice sia! v touching ):
now currently reading : sold haha try to finish 2 books during my weekend hahaha cus they jus pass me another 1 tdy!
addicted to read alr :D hahaha!

okay tata!

i need some courage.

FUCK!

argh i really dno how to find a stronger word to express how i feel right nowww
argh i feel like screaming out loud until 12th storey neighbours could hear me.
argh i feel like strangling someone now probably my soft toys will be the victim.
argh i feel like crying out loud cus i dno how to vent my anger on it.
argh i feel like dying cus i can talk to nobody not bcus i have no one to talk to but i dno how to say out. damn it seriously!!!!

argh i dont understand y things always turn out to be this way. jus bcus im sort like being nice and dn nw you'all wna take advantage of it la, climbed over my top. everytime im the one. you' all jolly well noe tt it doesn't feels good to be left out but how can you' all treated me this way. sucker now i dno which word of yours can be trusted anymore.suckers! i dont give a damn to this shit seriously. now i totally noe how is it like to be in a 'girl' sch life...

fuckmylife- just last week i posted smth like tt too. i tot after tt incident everything will be fine. like i think of how nice you'all can be at times but now i pondered r those things tt we had fr the past few mths are real? now i understand wad jen told me before tt, early still i tot it was nonsense. but now i totally agrees with her. i dont like to put on a fake smile and wearing a mask. but wad can i do? pretendance perhaps.

everything is damn screwed up!
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sorry i shouldn't have avoid. i noe i suck. but thr's no turning back.
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YEAH HH FINALLY REPLIED MY MAIL!!!!!! HAPPY TTM!!!!!
but suay ttm the one i wn not available anymore ):

hahaha tdy went dwn to np meet fleonna& xiu!!! like finally!!!! haha (:
read my books while they are doing their work. left thr ard 4 plus, me& na headed to town after tt.
roamed ard fep, dined at kfc, continue to walk ard town, home sweet home ard 8.
hahaa finally get to spend some quality time with this girl. yippie :D

pics to be uploaded by tmr hahaha

tired ttm. gna read my book, watch tveee & sleep early tonight ((:

good nights!

Stay.....
if thr's love.... thr will be hope (:

Today, school was great hmm as usual had the most boring lessons, eat lunch & crap with my polymates. ate fd court 1 muslim food- the popcorn chicken rice haha nt bad okay i finished the whole plate of rice man. my friends said tt my future bf/hubby damn fortunate will have a good skin complexion cus i always finish my food leaving the plate clean haha but they also said my future bf/hubby v good to me too hahaha funny la cus whn we were young our mummy always tell us tt my finish your food if nt your future bf/husband will not look handsome hahaha! okay ya tt's all.

after sch went to town straight to meet bf;wt. but she was late so i went to fep alone to get my hairband also to help yanhui to look out fr her pullover hahaha in the end i found it okay & help her buy hahaha FINALLY! this girl depressed over it alr haha she must THANKS ME ALOT MAN hahaha! kidding. eh after tt met bf;wt and headed off to cini fr our movies! saw junhao& his gf!! 

Caught 2012! hahaha yea finally! im so excited ttm  fr the whole entire day okay. the movie was effing awesome alrights. stood still fr 2.5hrs without much fidgetting okay entirely glue myself on the seat to the screen okay. this shows how much i was into tt movie. awwww the movie damn sad la some parts v touching. dno is consider a good/happy ending or wad. but overall i think the movie not bad should really go watch it man. hahaa i dont mind watching it agn hahaha. awww i dont want to die in this way la i know if is gna to happen cfm die one la no way to escape man. awwww is the world really gna to end?? i dont want T.T

After movie, walked back to fep, help yan hui to get her things dn went fr our dinner. had wanton noodles :DD
after movie home sweet home :D
hope to cya soon agn bestfriend weiting. :D

tmr gna meet fleonna bestfriend yuppie v long nvr meet her alr miss her man :D

hahhaa okay gna rest early tonights tata!

hmm should i????
feel like dropping by & say 'hi'
but but but i cant.

im not supposed to feel this way.

perhaps, let go, no pt holding on.
in life, there are much more things to do.
love is just yet another thing.

alrights time to update again haha!.
overall this week was a bit alright la except fr the first part of the week which had really upset me seriously. hmm disappointed/sad perhaps but now im alright perfectly alright i guess tho thr will still be a torn in my heart.

wed, had cs test hope tt i can pass!!

thurs, long day in sch, gems love r/s merged class so kinda had speed dating again!! sian gt to keep talking and talking until v tired sia, met some weirdo guys which bcme our jokes fr the day man is nt in terms of their looks is their behaviours and the way they talk okay haha but i took this bcus this gems is so slack cn. hmm after tt had law dn auto cadd. we missed 1hr of the lesson zzz. end of the day.

fri, skates, the 6 of us finally !! haha BF;WT, eileen and pbeh were thr too. had lotsa funs skating, slacking and joking with them :D
THANKSFR THE ROSE, CHOCS & FR COMING DOWN! LOVE YA! <3

sat, OUT WITH BF;WT sweeeeeeeeet! so haappy ttm! hahaha! bought many things :D saw yanhui& co. hahaha so happy! dinner @ her hse (: sweet thanks fr everything & sorry fr everything
saw 1 agnes b. thing tt i wanted to buy badly!!!! i wn a job!! i wna work!!!

sun, granny's hse! :D blogshop with mummy& spent a bomb again! i hould seriously cut down on my shopping expenses.
no more shopping trips no more blogshopping.

hais back to my mundane school life again!
but i can't wait to watch 2012& paranomal activity with my two lovely darlings on mon&tues respectively hahaha

i should go to bed like now goodnights! :D

i wanted you.
can you pull me back?
just for me will you?
love

life is filled with ups and downs right? so probably im now are having my down periods. call me an emo, a big time loser or whatsoever, i dont care. i dont care if you dont like cus this is my blog and supposed to be personal and private so i can talk abt anything i wan. 

sick & tired of having this kind f up life... like everything in a mess. ):

IM NOT HAPPY AT ALL!!!
NOT AT ALLL~!!!

no one understand.
no one bothers.
cus im jus a NOBODY.  

i don't mind to be alone, i dont mind to be a loner.
i just don't want to talk anymore. i don't want to talk to anyone anymore.
i don't want to be connected to human.
i just want to live in my own world tt's all.
cus im tired. im really tired.

jus bcus im not greedy tt's y i deserved to be alone.

i dont understand y the world can be so unfair to me seriously. y cant they jus be fair to me for once??
i dont like ppl to compare with me how bad they were whn they are seriously like some fortunate happy girl.
is it tt only greedy ppl can get happiness?
i have tried to be positive to make myself believed tt im actually v fortunate compared to other ppl alr. but still, i cannot make it thr.

after all the rantings, i find myself being v pathetic. what a pathetic person i am.
i broke down like finally. it felt better after crying my lungs out.

i must be strong! i will be strong!!

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today sucked!  totally! eh okay so tdy after sch met bf;wt & ch at expo fr the robinson sales. spent quite a lot man! ch spent the most!! Yay so happy got my mooks! hahaha!!! after our spree we went to subway thanks bf;wt fr treating :D hmm after dinner home sweet home (: thanks fr tdy <3

i didn't expect you to be such a person. with 2 sided face. i tot you are someone who is easy going, nice, understandable and trustworthy. but it doesn't seems to be like this. okay should i put it this way i still dont noe you well yet within this few mths. oh well tdy you jus show up true colours. i hated being accused fr nth alright not nothing is things tt im in wrong okay! mayb partially but not all. Im not even in the fault for all the times.
SO DONT YOU DARE TO PIN POINT ME & ACCUSED ME!!!! if you really wna go you will go okay. you also dont wna go one so dont blame me fr everything!!!!
DONT YOU EVER POINT YOUR FINGER TO ME & SAY IS ME ALRIGHT!!! if you dare to do it again im gna bite it offf.
f off! but i don't think can. FML!

okay tt's all dont really wna to let her to spoil my mood any further. jus tt i think tt i should really be cautious in my words in future.

goodnights ): 

FRIDAY, sch was alright jus tt stupid idea killed my brain cell. had to keep trying to make the product using zbrush. f tt seriuoslly. BS lec was okay i was paying attention in his class. tut only need to do 2 ques and we can go off alr. as i had done mine beforehand so all i have to do is fr the girls to finish theirs. and we were off at 11.30. headed to fd court fr our lunch cum brft. after tt helped my mum to take away western food and headed home str after tt. napped fr 3 hrs straight. woke up, with 6 missed calls and 2 msges. gosh!. hmm was still deciding whether to go fr skate/ meet jas&jl fr dinner @ chomp chomp. In the end, i decided to give skate a miss due to the v bad weather. so i met them ard 7 and bused to chomp chomp tgt. bf;wt finally decided to join us too. had lotsa sinful foods! had desserts too! HOME SWEET HOME ard 10 (:

SATURDAY!
HAPPY 19MONTHS TO US!
hahaha! so fast is another mth alr. hmm time filies! We had a great time hanging out, laughing out loud at many many other stupid things i say and you say  and despite having endless of quarrels with you but everytime, everything will ended nicely one :D 
and we still love each other alot and cherishes each another more. even tho now we dont meet each other v often but knowing tt you will always be thr is enough and of course i know you do care <3 love ya! best frends forever!!

due to heavy loads of hmwk we had, so ytd we spent our 19mths at bf;wt hse to clear our hmwk! hahaha! had bbt & ordered canadian pizzas. karen came, and chatted with her and her mummy (: hahaha so managed to come up something fr my idea presentation. had dinner at her hse again her mummy cooked! thanks! watched tvee do work home sweet home ard 9 plus. she surprises me& gave me smth <3 surprises are loved!  THANKS LOT! ((: what a simple yet a sweet day (:

SUNDAY, woke up late at 1! had chicken rice fr lunch :D watched xia dao siao with my parents :D not bad quite funny and not really tt scary has! after movie attempted to do some ect tut but failed! cus i can't find the ans. so i decided to read a book tt i borrow frm ly. yakuza moon-memoirs of a gangster's daughter! its a nice book, quite sad tt she is leading such a life hoping tt now she will be great. i started it at 4pm and finished the whole book at 9pm! within friggin short of 5hrs! AWESOME RIGHT??? im so proud of myself seriously cus this is first and ever time i finsh a book in a 1 day! oops no is less than a day! tho is not like those kind of very very thick books but i still very HAPPY. okay tt's not the main point. i found out tt i love to read biography alot and i love tt book man i think the writer is great& she is cool!!. okay tt's wad i did fr tdy. hmm dont think im gna work on my ppt fr tdy. oh should i? hais next week got CS test and IDEA presentaion f tt all!

okay tata! goodnights!

someday, i'm going to meet the one, the person who will care enough about me to make me their number one.